This is one of the ones that I am not sure if I should post it or not. I think I should. Part of doing all this is that it documents events. Something BIG is coming and God impressed on me that what he has told me needs to be made public so that when this big thing happens it brings Him glory. So here it is: "Good morning daughter. I know there has been some disappointment and discord at your workplace and other areas of your life at the moment but do not lose heart. It is a sign of change and you are learning how to cope when things don't go your way. You are forming alliances and showing how you react in difficult circumstances. I know it is disappointing but things shall improve soon. Now to your church life. Your small group has been good for you but I know you want to connect with more people. It is a shame you are unable to attend the women's life cell. A new opportunity is coming and I want you to take it. Don't worry about university - all will be fine. You worry about so much daughter but they are earthly things and shall all pass away. Thank you for bringing these things to me - insignificant as they are. I enjoy talking to you and helping you. We do not communicate as we once did but it is the nature of relationships to change as they grow. Ours will continue to change until the day we meet face to face. Enjoy this day daughter." During the first part of the message about discord the word 'marriage' kept going through my head.

Something that has been on my heart of late is the idea of marriage. Namely when do I get one??? It has really been pressing on me the last few months so of course God has been speaking to me about it. "Daughter, there are many kinds of purity. You desire to be made pure but you do not understand what you are asking. To be made pure you must first go through the flame. The impurities must rise to the surface so that they may be removed. It is a hard process and not what I intend for you in this moment. This moment is one of preparation and anticipation. The one you desire is coming. You have been asking for him, yearning for him, begging and crying for him. Now is the time in which you must prepare yourself for him as he is preparing himself for you. Do not lose heart my child. I have not forgotten you or your earthly desires. All shall happen by my design. Do not forget you are not forgotten."

One of my favourites

Another old message - well not so old, it was only in September! "Learn to hear when I am calling. Do not become deaf to me. I am with you always - what makes you think I will ever be silent? You, my child, will hear me always. You and I shall never part ways. There may be times you are unhappy with me but we shall always be together. So dear child you wonder what I have to say to you this time. You await a grand revelation. Not all things are big, momentous occasions. Tonight I just wanted to be with you. Sit and be with me child. Come to your father. Abide with me. I love you." Isn't that lovely?

It is hard to know what I should be sharing here. Sometimes He tells me that a particular message is for me and me alone. Other times He clearly says I should share what he says with the world! Many though I do not know. I got the sense when I began this that part of the purpose was to document so that when something happened it would be obvious it was foretold and the event would bring glory to his name. It is hard to describe feelings :D. Anyway I have several messages that maybe I should put up here. I keep them all in a book. When all this first started I would just write on any random piece of paper and stick it in a folder. Then one day God reminded me of this really beautiful notebook I had bought. I had never used this notebook because it was so pretty I knew it would have to be something very special to make me write in it. Seriously I couldn't bring myself to write in this thing. This is the first message I wrote in it: My dear child, the time has come. You have had the break I offered you but now is the time I spoke of before. You did as I asked and forego other responsibilities. I told you something was coming, something new, something big. This is it - this is the beginning. You are my record keeper. This is your task. You do not yet know what it is you are to record but listen to me and all shall be revealed. Sometimes your task shall not be easy. This will sometimes be a burden on you but you are not alone. Others shall assist you in your task as you shall assist others. None of my children are ever alone. Not only am I with you but you are surrounded by your brothers and sisters. Do not fret my child. This record shall be in many parts - few will ever see its majority and only I shall know its whole. My projects encompass eons and are so complex your mind could never comprehend it. You shall see in time. Remember you asked for this. You wanted a greater gift. You wanted to be used. This is your role. It was designed for you. You were designed for it. You have accepted. You have begun.

Message from 23/12/13

My daughter, please tell my children I love them. This is what they need to hear. This is what they need to know. Too often they are told of the avenging God, the thunderbolt and lightning God. The God who destroys all who disobey Him. They forget the forgiving God, the saving God, creating God, the loving, fatherly God. Remind my children of all that I am. I AM. I am so much more than ideas and stories. I am more than a concept. I do not fit within your descriptions or your concepts of right and wrong or good and evil. You ask yourselves how a good God could allow suffering and debate my existence. It pains me to be doubted by those I love but I gave you choice and you have made your decisions. Much is to come that shall change hearts and minds. I know how things shall end and it will be glorious. Tell my children - love abounds.

This is the WORD I was given last Sunday after church. We had had an awesome guest speaker and it was during this time that God told me to give the blog another chance at life. Here it is, typed up for all the world to see: So you listened to my servant. You have no excuses now - the blinders you put on yourself have been removed. You have been distancing yourself from others. You have been hiding and denying your talents. Share your talents with the world. You set up a system for this long ago. We have been building up to this point for a while. You heard what I said this morning. It is time to go and do it.

So it's been 2 and a half years since I have even looked at this thing. So much has happened since 2011 that completely turned my life around. Last weekend I really felt God was on my heart to return to the world of blogging. Of course being human I told him I would get around to it but last night he reminded me that he wanted me to reopen the blog. He wants me to share messages he has been sending me. I don't know how this is all going to work and I don't know if anyone is ever going to see this but what God wants God gets so here we go...